Once upon a time, I was falling in love
But now, I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time, there was light in my life
But now, there's only love in the dark
There's nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

I am always in the dark..

あの女の子

Girl: Gillian Toh aka Retsuya
Age: 19
Schools: IJ Bukit timah, SCGS, SAJC, back to SCGS, NTU SBS
Loves God, anime, drawing, smoked salmon and brie cheese

彼女の欲しい
To be fluent in Japanese by the time I get out of uni
To get a Japanese class somehow without having to spend too much
The Da Girlz to meet together again one day
To get a Wacom tablet and photoshop CS
To live right for God and His plans

私と話すこと


友達

mel. jenny. Esme. Viv. audrie. ARGH cell. BPYM. Sean. Chrisll. Dev. Anime merchandise. uzzy.

過去;

July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 August 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 March 2006 June 2006 November 2006 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 November 2012

感謝;

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Blogger.
Blogskins.
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Saturday, October 31, 2009
1:42 PM

back to the fumehood.

I've never failed so hard in an experiment before, maybe its because of the cocktail of smells wafting throughout the lab that dulled my senses, or the fact that we didn't read properly to use DRY test tubes to put our solutions in.

By right, esters are supposed to smell sweet. What we got was nail polish, then bubblegum, rubber, rubber, mutant orange....or at least that's what the TA says. Our report is screwed. We ended up faking smells according to what other ppl got or what the TA got, so we just threw up our stuff and went home. Fun though, but I ended up smelling nothing but rubber in my brain.

ORGANIC CHEM PRACS ARE SO FUN SO FUN SO FUN. So much better than doing SPARTAN.

Progressing mission to invade Japanese level 4 next sem. I'm going to take the lady's (who said I was bleeping overqualified) advice and try again for the next sem. And I am gonna screw it up so bad (at least answering in simple terms and not use bombastic verbs and sentence structures like I did the last time), so that I can sneak inside. Bwaha. If they still catch me and throw me out, fine by me, I'll find a backup UE to study.

So much to do, so little time. When time is god-given, it is up to us to make it last.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Saturday, October 24, 2009
11:09 AM

After having birthday, it's back to the world of last min mugging and furiously typing out reports while fellow APH fans get to enjoy themselves(approximately NOW) in the sun discussing fandom and cosplaying and the APH fans in SBS(or at least those whom I know) are grounded at home studying. Where is the justice??????

Under the same sky, having the same passions, yet so far away.

I tried to blast APH music from my com, but the sounds of marukaitechikyuu killed my concentration. If there would ever still be a Hetalia day next year, I'm going to make sure I have NO tests, finished all tutorials and reports, and fly to wherever.

Crap those ppl happily enjoying themselves at East Coast Park...

Ooh never mind I got KINO VOUCHERS so I can spend it on WorldWideWalking guidebook.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Friday, October 09, 2009
9:00 PM

These few weeks are totally crap. I'm going to die from the lack of brains.

I have 4 stupid practical reports, and 2 to be handed up on 23rd October(MY BDAY). Furthermore, my mum and dad are going out so I am going to be alone unless my friends treat me to something buhhhhhhhhh, I must demand some nice food and presents to compensate for the effort that I'm going to spend finishing up my practical reports. Plus the 3 tests that'll be coming up. URGH.

Tis cruel, this poor suffering world. I still have to memorise 20 lousy amino acids.

There's a reason why I love wet labs. You can camwhore and actually do SOMETHING within these 3 hours. Today our mission was to extract caffeine from tea(tieguanyin tea, to be specific. Lovely tea). Since we had missing ppl in our group, I paired up with Pei Shan, Aysha, Evelyn and another girl. Five's a huge group, but heck care.

We trooped off to the fume cupboards, where a bunch of glass stuff were. Taking our tea leaves and other various chemicals, we began to boil tea. Actually it wasn't much tea, but more like this black goey "tar" like stuff rising up from our flask when it boiled. After boiling, we smelt it, and it smelled like overboiled tea that was strong stuff. Next was filtering our tea. We had this huge blob of fluffy cotton wool to trap debris, then our teaching assistant took one look at our ball of wool, and said

"This is too much...actually you all only need this much."

We ended up with a cotton blob the size of the nail on a little finger. I can't imagine how hard we laughed when we saw the size. The smiles soon faded when we had to filter that black mess of tar. It wouldn't go down properly, and what was left was really concentrated thick tea stuff.

Our separating funnel came into use when we threw our filtrate inside, along with dichloromethane, and it nicely separated into two layers. I shook it as per told, and the stopper cover on the separating funnel shot out like a cork on a wine bottle, due to the pressure. Then we were given the task of taking out the dichloromethane. We didn't do it properly, so there were these little black blobs floating on the surface. Pei Shan had the job of sucking them out with the dropper, tried to collate them to become one with Russia(lol at giving the blobs a name) and excising them.

After that we added more chemical to get a clear substance, then putting it in this cool machine called a rotary evaporator, and the clear stuff disappeared in a few min. What was left was this white powdery stuff with a smell like tea. That was our precious caffeine, legalised drug taken by students.

I think PeiShan was really intrigued by the caffeine cos she kept sniffing it and becoming high on it. I almost became high myself, believe me. We scrapped out the white stuff and melted it, and recorded the melting point. End of experiment.

First coke, now caffeine. I'm not going to touch tea for a while. Our group is like the most hazardous, with Aysha breaking a pasteur pipette and then Evelyn breaking another one, and our table is always filled with Kleenwipes.

I need better stuff for my birthday, needs something to reward me for finishing all them practicals.

Oh here are some funny quotes taken from stickers on the lab doors.

"Lysed to kill"
"Nice genes"(this funny one popped out after I told PS the joke on genes.)
"If you are not part of the solution, you are part of the precipitate"

Wonderful way to brighten up a dreary lab.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Wednesday, October 07, 2009
7:48 PM

Guess what.

HATSUNE MIKU AND K-ON IS COMING TO AFA.

The best thing is...I HAVE STUPID EXAMS TO STUDY FOR. 

Right so I can't go to AFA, and I can't go to EOY, cos I'll be in Aussie. I wanted to go to EOY mannnnnnnnn so I can do my Yao cosplay....but I think now that'll have to wait for SOY. The Yao/China costume seems to be the cheapest cosplay ever as I can easily get my clothes from the house(pants my own, shirt from brother, shoes stolen from CDS, wok and ladle can beg mother, Hello kitty toys my own, PANDA PLUSHIE IS NEEDED). I have lack of money too I have only XX dollars in my kitty when I went to top up card. Like that arh, I'm going to get a job during the June vacation. I don't even have enough money to freaking drive lah......I need a source of income man. 

Right now, I have a lot of reports to do.....why can't I do some 4koma on SBS like I did in SA????? 

I've also been planning more about the Quest for the Truth series, my mind has expanded it to a very nice storyline but I can't draw some parts for nuts. Maybe in the future that would happen.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Monday, October 05, 2009
9:15 PM

I have just given up looking at the computer practical that was given today. 

This whole month is totally brilliance. With 1 assignment due, 2 practicals to finish, 2 tests to study for, a whole load of work to go through without cramming, and more tutorials. I really can't get any more of this...

My mind has also gone bonkers by watching Hetalia non stop, listening to Vocaloid and *phffft* returning to my rocketshipping ways. Certainly, what brains do I have left?????

expressing the emptiness inside me..