Once upon a time, I was falling in love
 But now, I'm only falling apart
 There's nothing I can do
 A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time, there was light in my life
 But now, there's only love in the dark
 There's nothing I can say
 A total eclipse of the heart

I am always in the dark..

あの女の子

Girl: Gillian Toh aka Retsuya
Age: 19
Schools: IJ Bukit timah, SCGS, SAJC, back to SCGS, NTU SBS
Loves God, anime, drawing, smoked salmon and brie cheese

彼女の欲しい
To be fluent in Japanese by the time I get out of uni
To get a Japanese class somehow without having to spend too much
The Da Girlz to meet together again one day
To get a Wacom tablet and photoshop CS
To live right for God and His plans

私と話すこと


友達

mel. jenny. Esme. Viv. audrie. ARGH cell. BPYM. Sean. Chrisll. Dev. Anime merchandise. uzzy.

過去;

July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 August 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 March 2006 June 2006 November 2006 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 November 2012

感謝;

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Wednesday, August 05, 2009
4:45 PM

I need to rant. Hence the usefulness of this blog has been put to the test, cos I don't care if anybody reads it anymore.

OK, so I went for the placement test, so far so good, I crapped out an essay and breezed through the rest, though I think I have some mistakes here and there. So now I had to await my email.

Now before that the coordinator called me up asking me about the proof I have given them. Apparently my learning hours of Japanese is more than the 60 hrs I put(that was from my stint at Ikoma), cos its not counting the tons of free time I had from self learning since I turned 12. So now they come and tell me I AM TOO GOOD FOR THEIR CLASS SO I CAN'T ENTER COS IT'LL DISRUPT THE SYSTEM OF THE CLASS. The only class I'm supposedly eligible for is JLPT 3/O level Japanese ppl, the higher 6 class. I am supposed to get a cert in JLPT 3, chuck it with the uni and take another damn placement test. I went round almost arguing with the lady that I had no to little conversational skills but then I asked about the syllabus for level 4. Looks like they are damn slow, since the stuff they will be learning are those which I have properly done 4 years ago, which makes Level 4 equivalent to Basic 2. I have been learning more on my own from Basic 2(thanks to now defunct Goro language), so now I'm too good for their shoes. They can't have me in this class cos it would disrupt participation.

What an irony, I couldn't get into Japanese in sec school cos I was not good enough(in PSLE,or maybe that's cos of competition), now I can't get in cos I'm too good.

Now in order for me to study in Japanese level 6, I need a JLPT cert. Exam is in December, preparatory classes start in October, it's only 5 lessons and 2 mock papers but its still $190 bucks. Can't do it in school cos in total they only study 144 hours. In school it's FREE. WHYYYYYYYY.

This means I have to find a new elective this sem. I don't know whether to feel proud of myself, it's really mixed feelings cos I am happy that I know my level in Jap is good, but now I'm too good to learn in school. Maybe my only way of communicating and getting to know more about the culture is to go into the Cultural club, participate in exchange programmes and the whatnot.

God, thank you for the talent you have given me?

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Monday, August 03, 2009
2:48 PM

Went to NTU to settle some admin. Really tiring.

First, Mum dropped me at Student Affairs to pick up my bus card. ERRRGGHHH My photo is so damn unglam man, I kept tilting my head. Hahahahahaha it's gonna be on there for a few years though. Next my mum parked me at Block N2, went on a wild goose chase looking for the MLE office, asked many passer-bys, and eventually went to a ulu office. No one was in so my mum called the office. DAMMIT THEY HAD MOVED HOUSE AND THE WEBSITE NEVER SAID ANYTHING. So we had lunch first, then drove to HSS to drop off my form, my test will be done on Wednesday.

THIS MEANS I HAVE 1 AND HALF DAYS TO STUDY FOR THE DAMN TEST.

I haven't touched some of my things, so I need to start going through. I've never studied Japanese very much seriously, but I have the aptitude to do so. Ganbare!!!!!

2 hours of test. Hope it doesn't involve any listening test. My particles are shameful, but I can make it through fill-in-blanks with helping words and multiple choice comprehensions.

expressing the emptiness inside me..