Once upon a time, I was falling in love
 But now, I'm only falling apart
 There's nothing I can do
 A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time, there was light in my life
 But now, there's only love in the dark
 There's nothing I can say
 A total eclipse of the heart

I am always in the dark..

あの女の子

Girl: Gillian Toh aka Retsuya
Age: 19
Schools: IJ Bukit timah, SCGS, SAJC, back to SCGS, NTU SBS
Loves God, anime, drawing, smoked salmon and brie cheese

彼女の欲しい
To be fluent in Japanese by the time I get out of uni
To get a Japanese class somehow without having to spend too much
The Da Girlz to meet together again one day
To get a Wacom tablet and photoshop CS
To live right for God and His plans

私と話すこと


友達

mel. jenny. Esme. Viv. audrie. ARGH cell. BPYM. Sean. Chrisll. Dev. Anime merchandise. uzzy.

過去;

July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 August 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 March 2006 June 2006 November 2006 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 November 2012

感謝;

Designer
Photobucket.
Blogger.
Blogskins.
Picture: Hollowland
Brushes

Friday, June 26, 2009
4:03 PM

Went for Medical checkup today. I forgot my Matric number. So I tried to remember roughly how it looked like, I only remember the front and the last 4 numbers. I just realised I missed out 1 digit. Damn. I hope nothing happens. 

Also forgot to give the GIRO form. What is wrong with me???????

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Tuesday, June 23, 2009
1:00 PM

God is ever gracious and He provides.

The night before yesterday I was pleading to God to make my decisions for Uni easier, since if the appeal came positive I'll probably be ranting to everyone how damn difficult it is for me to decide between 2 universities with equal perks, only that one is nearer to my house than the other. Looks like God decided for me when that miserable small envelope once again made its way into my mailbox. So, ok, I'll be going to NTU. 

Frankly I'm not as disappointed than when I got my first rejection letter. I wanted to get the stuff for NTU done, and I'm not that much of a reject-a-good-course person. God knows my thoughts and what would be best for me to display His glory, and He knew that NTU is the best place for me. Wah so far at least 5 people, including me, from my church are going to NTU this year. Looks like from there I will be able to work hard with not too much competition from loads of A plus plus students, work hard to get direct honours, and hopefully be able to study more fervently about diseases and immunity. Then maybe can carry on to do Ph.D and work in a research centre or teach, since the NIE is right behind my school. 

I'd better find some time to read through my bio notes before school starts. I've now entered a band, studying and practicing like crap for piano, in process of a defunct teaching job (will call school when it reopens, so i hope that lousy virus doesn't close it), about to complete my sewing project, and also on the way to study biomedical sciences and free Japanese. WOOT.

Oh, and did I say I lurve England??? It's impossible for me to read the newspapers and not imagining it in Hetalia style. Hetalia revolutionizes politics and history, even if I hate studying history. 

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Wednesday, June 17, 2009
4:48 PM

Went to collect A level cert. They put it in a nice nice folder book. Like it will last, it's only a speck in your earthly achievements. 

Then went to Wisma to buy shoes. Came out with 3 pairs from pretty feet, then mum bought a bag. Hopefully my dad doesn't see this. Had Swedish meatballs for lunch, yum yum. Lots of international fare at the downstairs floor. Even saw Swiss sausage stall (WURST) next door. I have to stop linking food, country history and diplomatic relations to Hetalia, it's getting too addictive. AND they are making a second season, dear lord, it's that popular. 

I would really love Fairy Tail to get animated, it'll be a dream come true. 

Going to JB in two days. Man. Hopefully I'll be able to learn more about drawing near to His presence. Sadly not much free time (Dad won't be able to go golf and no D24 party yay!!!). 

It's so hot out here. I feel like going for a swim, but don't want to swim alone. I'll just take a nice cold shower. 

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Friday, June 12, 2009
9:54 PM

I should have more days out with girl friends, it's gonna become even lesser days with one going aussie, one busy in sch, one disappeared, only maybe have church friends, and others are "close but not so close to go out together". Damn I need more socialising skills to survive in uni.

Went out with Mel, had pastamania, then while waiting for movie to start I picked up my gorgeous hetalia storyboard book, watched movie, went round to do window shopping at Wisma and Far East(shopping!! I really should practice. For the first time in my life shopping I feel like a girl lollololol). Found new eyeliner, restrained from buying more eyeshadow(I feel like a makeup whore), found nice shoes, but needs mum to see, found even nicer baby doll dresses in Far east, but still need mum to look(I NEED A BETTER JUDGEMENT ON CLOTHES).

I need a new wardrobe of clothes. Clothes either too shabby or inappropriate for wearing to uni. I don't wanna wear jeans all the time to lecture, so boring. I think I have an eye for good fashion, but am too lazy to wear it cos it doesn't look good on me.

Got NTU's handbook. Apparently they want me to settle the whole online declaration and photo ALL BY NEXT WEEK. That is all before the stupid appeal gets in. Not that I want to go to NUS any badly now, but with all this protocol having to be done, and if I choose to go to NUS I have to do all sorts of things to ntu, and then do the same things over again in NUS, then I'd rather stay in NTU. 

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Thursday, June 04, 2009
8:42 PM

I am back with a cold coming on. 

Two days of staying with kids is a nightmare, have to control the noise pollution, settle petty and often strange disputes, bathing those who can't do it themselves, babysit them at the playground, brainstorming games for them, sleeping in the girls' room on the 1st night and having my pillow stolen and waking up like 7 times....so all that has made me catch this stupid sore throat. By tomorrow I should have runny/blocked nose. And I still have MMT retreat. Urgh. 

expressing the emptiness inside me..