Once upon a time, I was falling in love
But now, I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time, there was light in my life
But now, there's only love in the dark
There's nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

I am always in the dark..

あの女の子

Girl: Gillian Toh aka Retsuya
Age: 19
Schools: IJ Bukit timah, SCGS, SAJC, back to SCGS, NTU SBS
Loves God, anime, drawing, smoked salmon and brie cheese

彼女の欲しい
To be fluent in Japanese by the time I get out of uni
To get a Japanese class somehow without having to spend too much
The Da Girlz to meet together again one day
To get a Wacom tablet and photoshop CS
To live right for God and His plans

私と話すこと


友達

mel. jenny. Esme. Viv. audrie. ARGH cell. BPYM. Sean. Chrisll. Dev. Anime merchandise. uzzy.

過去;

July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 August 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 March 2006 June 2006 November 2006 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 November 2012

感謝;

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Wednesday, February 18, 2009
8:29 PM

PHEWS. I finally finished my support letter. That's some things down.

I've been thinking lately on my career path, since in a few weeks time however well I did will lead me to seriously consider my options. It's no easy job but it's my next step to become part of the tangled world around me.

Funny, when I was younger I wanted to be a doctor, nurse or and author. I know the first two were just stuff that came out of my occupation textbook (those things should really say how much you need to do in order to get there, esp doctor, the pre-requisites are like wtf so only the really lucky can get in). However I was almost considering being an author, being a really book savvy girl at that time (esp chinese books OH NOES...*can't speak much chinese now lolz facepalm*), and I was doing my own picture books. I think around that time i also got quite addicted to stuff like pkmn until the parents were convinced it was an advent of the devil, so I was still coming up stories with friends who love writing.

And now as I draw closer to make a serious mark on which career I should take, my thinking needs a change. Judging by my ability I hope to get into something that is able to help the community through science, which is the only thing I know best. Business is way out of my league unless I wish to sell my drawings, which is an alternative. Right now I hope to (hopefully) get into pharmacy, even though it is just as hard to get in as medicine (AAAB as minimum). If not I may try Life science, using Biomed science as a major. That will bring me closer to research and since it is almost predominantly bio it should be interesting, though I would prefer something dealing with chemicals (ORGANIC CHEM RULES MAN WHATEVER ANYONE IS THINKING). I also did this career quiz by MOE and first on my list was....PSYCHOLOGY. LOL. It was one of my considerations, except the whole family thinks I'm a bit looney myself, so maybe I can get myself checked heh.

Next was like ART CURATOR. I was like WHUT. And it gets better. I got like Journalist, Research officer, Sociologists and i was just LOLWHUT all the way. The last few seemed a bit better, storyboard artists, technical writers, author. Well, of course this isn't very reliable, like how my bro got FIREMAN and PILOT WAHAHAHAHAHA.

Oh well, if worse comes to worse I'll go join NAFA or something lol. I'll probably end up a teacher or a poor little freelance cartoonist. Hey, even freelance cartoonists do well sometimes, like Favian Ee (my idol for christian comic giftart). That kind of business is cool.

ARGH I only hope my results are fine I just need something like an A or two and a couple of Bs. Ahhhh must.not.think. I'm breaking out in a rash and I dusted out my whole room. What next from being stressed??????

The thought of looming exam results LEAVES ME IN DESPAIR!!!!!!!!!!!

..........oh wait. I said something like that before As. LOL.

expressing the emptiness inside me..