Once upon a time, I was falling in love
But now, I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time, there was light in my life
But now, there's only love in the dark
There's nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

I am always in the dark..

あの女の子

Girl: Gillian Toh aka Retsuya
Age: 19
Schools: IJ Bukit timah, SCGS, SAJC, back to SCGS, NTU SBS
Loves God, anime, drawing, smoked salmon and brie cheese

彼女の欲しい
To be fluent in Japanese by the time I get out of uni
To get a Japanese class somehow without having to spend too much
The Da Girlz to meet together again one day
To get a Wacom tablet and photoshop CS
To live right for God and His plans

私と話すこと


友達

mel. jenny. Esme. Viv. audrie. ARGH cell. BPYM. Sean. Chrisll. Dev. Anime merchandise. uzzy.

過去;

July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 August 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 March 2006 June 2006 November 2006 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 November 2012

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Monday, February 09, 2009
4:01 PM

100 things quiz but no one bothers but me boohoohoo.

1) Full Name:

Toh Hui Shan Gillian

2) Male/Female:

In what way do I look male...

3) Were you named after anyone?:

My name is a variant of my aunt Julia, but she's gone now...

4) Does your name mean anything?:
Gillian: youthful (young and cute forever right???)
Hui: Clever
Shan: Big debate over it, cos in my chinese dict it means SLOW(God forbid!!!) but my mum says it's a variant of graceful. I don't know who to believe.

5) Nick Name(s):

Retsuya, Roo roo(kazuki) DONKEY(yes serious my parents call me that ahhhhh)

6) What do you think you look like:

PHAIL.

7) Date Of Birth:
23/10/90

8) Place of Birth and Current Location:

Singapore

9) Nationality:

Singaporean chinese...

10) Astrology Sign:

Libra/Scorpio. My birthday is in between these two.

11) Chinese Astrology Sign:

Fire horse (not DONKEY!!!!!)

12) Religion:

Christianity

13) Whats your favorite smell?:

Chocolate

14) Political Position?:

everyday citizen

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?:

Ribena or milk

16) Hair + Eye colour:

black, dark brown

17) Do you look like anyone famous?:

NOOOOOO

18) What do you look like?:

a 14 year old schoolgirl (I'm actually waiting to be kicked into a uni)

19) Any unusual talents?:

I can draw and speak Japanese.

20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous?:

righty

21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other?:

Straight...

22) What do you do for a living?:

Currently shepherding little kids to do english

23) What do you do for fun?:

Talk to myself

24) What are your favorite art materials to work with?:

Pencil...never leave home without it and a notepad.

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?:

Pastels and watercolours. Oh, and CHARCOAL.

26) Have you met your grandparents?:

yeah

27) Boyfriend / Girlfriend:

I wish.

28) Crush:

Should I tell when some ppl might spill????

29) What celebrity would you date if you could?:

Miyano Mamoru!!!!! He's hot, has a hot singing and anime voice!!!!!

30) Current worries?:

Whether I can enter a good course or not.

31) Favorite online Guy/Girl(s):

My online friends are those whom I know...my tagboard group??

32) Favorite place to be?:

MANGA KISSA. Just sit there and read.

33) Least favorite place to be?:

in the middle of the Bukit timah trail and my father forcing me to hike.

34) Do you burn or tan?:

Burned before, but then again, I have a natural tan.

35) Ever break a bone?:

No

36) What is your favorite cereal?:

Koko crunch(ok that is a bit kiddy) and Blueberry morning.

37) You cry with:

Myself.

Do You Have...

38) Any sisters:

No

39) Any brothers:

one younger. YESHHH I CAN BOSSSSS

40) Any pets:

Ancient terappin and loads of fish.

41) An Illness:

PMS, cough

42) A Pager:

nope. WHO USES SUCH THINGS PHAIL.

43) A Personal phone line:

Yes

44) A Cell phone:

Yes

45) A visible birthmark:

No...

46) A Pool or hot tub:

no

47) A Car:

I can't even drive yet OTL

Describe Your...

48) Personality:

crazy but not really weird (THAT SHALL KEEP MY BRO FROM SAYING I'M RETARDED.)

49) Driving:

shamefully non-existent

50) Your clothing style:

Casual

51) Room:

Big and comfortable.

52) What’s missing:

from/for what? seriously guys, quizzes aren't supposed to be that hard.

53) School:

NO SCHOOL NO SCHOOL LALALALALALALA

54) Bed:

Messed. I slept on the opposite side of the bed again.

55) Relationship with your parent(s):

Quite ok, still have to be patient.

56) Do You believe in yourself:

not really heh.

57) Do you believe in love at first sight?:

no

58) Consider yourself a good listener:

I think so.

59) Have a future dream that you would like to share?:

I want to publish comics/tracts that would help ppl understand christ.

60) Get Along with your parents:

I guess

61) Save your e-mail conversations:

yeah. If it's long and fun.

62) Pray:

Everyday. Prayer is the hotline to everything and anything.

63) Believe in reincarnation:

No

64) Brush your teeth twice a day?:

Yeah of course.

65)Like to talk on the phone:

No not really. But now I have to cos now I think my family does not believe smsing is genuine enough as a communication device.

66) Like to eat?:
Japanese.

67) Like to exercise?:

I like playing tennis, but LAZY now cos no tennis mates.

68) Like to watch sports?:
AUSSIE OPEN. Federer PWNS. but he's getting old. Federer express almost retiring...

69) Sing in the car?

Nope. My brother will box me. And vice versa.

70) What is a dream that you have all the time?:

My EXAM RESULTS BEING ABYSSMAL. Seriously. But it turns out all wrong so I don't believe in it.

71) Dream in color:

yes

72) Do you have nightmares?:

Sometimes. But not so bad that I roll out of bed.

73) Sleep with a stuffed animal:

4, to be precise.



74) Right next to you:

Lots and lots of library books.

75) On your favorite coffee cup?:

I don't have a coffee cup. I don't even drink coffee.

76) On your mouse pad:

I don't have a mouse pad.

77) Your favorite flavor of gum?:

GUM IS BANNED. But whenever we go to church camp in Malaysia us kids always buy gum and eat it in front of our ex-minister...If I had a choice it would be grape.

78) Your brand of deodorant?:

Dr mist.

79) Your dream honeymoon spot:

I'd like to go to Europe...or in a countryside Japan...

80) Your dream husband/wife:

Someone who is loving, faithful, smart, and loves the Lord.

81) Hiding in your closet?:

All my secondary sch materials and now my JC stuff...

82) Under your bed:

Dust bunnies.

83) The name of one of your closest/best friends?:

Melissa!!! Oldest bff for 12 years running!!

84) Your bad time of the day:

very early morning...

85) Your worst fear(s):

I AM FEARLESS MWAHAHAHA. But now its my exam results being terrible.

86) What's the weather like:

Nice

87) Your favorite time of year?:

NOW. 7 months holiday break pwns.*runs away from the ppl who are serving the nation*

88) Your favorite holiday?:

NOW.

89) A material weakness?:

Anime plush toys and instructional books.

90) The weirdest food or drink that you like:

Gummy bears with mayo and bacon bits. It was used as a food dare and I just wolfed the plate down and started eating from others' plates too AIYOH I WAS SO DISGUSTING>x<

91) At the top of your "to-do list"?:

Be diligent in finishing this Quest for the Truth thing.

92) The hardest thing about growing up:

WORKING. Economy stinks. You realise that politics does involve you after all.

93) A pet peeve?:
not closing the fridge. CFCs!!!!!!!!

94) Your scariest moment:

Tripped over sofa and got 3 stitches on chin.

95) Your attitude about love?:

God=LOVE

96) The funniest or most desperate thing you've done to get the attention of the opposite sex?:
I don't think I'll ever do that unless I do stupid things like get chased by a pigeon or throwing the macs tray into the bin...

97) The worst feeling in the world:

losing someone/something

98) The best feeling in the world:

Feeling loved

99) Who sent this to you?:

I stole it. Mwaha

100) Tag 6 people:
nah

First issue of Quest for the Truth UP! Next is on relationships. The stuff learnt is quite vague so I have to really be creative when coming up with this. The life of an artist is crazy.

Vday coming up!!!!! I will be spending Vday...first with kids, then at pastor's function room. Yeah but this will be typical. In my first year in JC I bought marshmallows and made cards for every classmate including guys. At least this is better than being confined on a small island on Vday. Now that's just bummer.

expressing the emptiness inside me..