Once upon a time, I was falling in love
But now, I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time, there was light in my life
But now, there's only love in the dark
There's nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

I am always in the dark..

あの女の子

Girl: Gillian Toh aka Retsuya
Age: 19
Schools: IJ Bukit timah, SCGS, SAJC, back to SCGS, NTU SBS
Loves God, anime, drawing, smoked salmon and brie cheese

彼女の欲しい
To be fluent in Japanese by the time I get out of uni
To get a Japanese class somehow without having to spend too much
The Da Girlz to meet together again one day
To get a Wacom tablet and photoshop CS
To live right for God and His plans

私と話すこと


友達

mel. jenny. Esme. Viv. audrie. ARGH cell. BPYM. Sean. Chrisll. Dev. Anime merchandise. uzzy.

過去;

July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 August 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 March 2006 June 2006 November 2006 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 November 2012

感謝;

Designer
Photobucket.
Blogger.
Blogskins.
Picture: Hollowland
Brushes

Thursday, July 31, 2008
6:19 PM

Being forced to write in this blog, I shall just rant in here a little while before I go and grab some tasty treats.

I think school is driving me nuts already, and with so little time, I might as well be sent to the asylum very soon. Well, retsuya is crazy 99% of the time, the other 1 %? I don't know.

I miss my beloved Kanda... I only wish to go down to animehouse again, splurge like crazy...and of course drag some people down with me, I can't possibly go alone ranting like a mad idiot, do I????? There is still this crap called A levels, I want to be done and over with it...

Speaking about after A levels, I would like to do a load of things. Lists are FUN!!!!!
1) Learn Japanese/take JLPT 4 or 3
2) Learn proper drawing skills
3) Officially take up my drawing project based on random stuff that happen to me and others
4) Teach at Family service center
5) Go for Project Timothy and MISSION TRIP OPERATION LIPA if pastor decides to hold it

And so on. We girls can have so much fun while guys...I'd better not say, lest I get stepped on one day.

I hear the sound of plates. Must eat food.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Thursday, July 24, 2008
9:44 PM

Ok this is going to be a random post, since I have been bored to wits due to studying for stupid crap stuff, in my absolute goal to get good grades for prelims...that's right, I have tips to get ready for exams, and tips to watch out for during crap tests like these. I am going to do this with the help of...SOUL EATER EPISODE 14. I don't think anyone will get this, but screencaps will make you understand.

1)Get yourself charged up before the exams, and have a strict goal in mind.


2) Yes, even if it drives you nuts. Especially terrible math problems.


3) Ok something you should not do while studying, getting distracted by sleeping...CONCENTRATE.


4)In everything, please do not try and copy answers while studying. Especially going into the office to find answers, or you shall end up like...


...this.

On the day of exam itself,


Remember to write your name, class and date on every sheet of paper. Only people like Kid spend 1 hr writing name.


Do the paper with confidence and no worries about what's going to happen. Peace!


Don't be stupid and try to cheat here...lest you get a T grade...then again, no one will do this...


Please do not draw during exams, but actually, I am guilty of it... but I do it after the paper, hehe.


If any unecessary damage has been done to the paper, ask for a new one. Don't freak out/faint/vomit blood

My com's officially out of ammo, so ENJOY!!

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Saturday, July 05, 2008
9:55 PM

stole this from blyu.
- Pick your birth month
- Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you
- Bold the five-ten that best apply to you
- Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a lj-cut

oh crap this ain't lj, but I can't remember the tag for strikethrough. so I'll replace it with italics. Hope no one minds

OCTOBER: Loves to chat Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantlyAlways making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others thinkEmotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance.Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned Loves outdoors. Just and fair. SpendthriftEasily influenced Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

Ack if anyone wants other months, here they are:

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.
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FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
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MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.
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APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.
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MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.
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JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.
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JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
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AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.
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SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.
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OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.
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NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

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DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

This is super long...

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Tuesday, July 01, 2008
8:43 PM

yes, i know I haven't been updating. But some people have been telling me the blog is dead. So I shall revive it by poking. *POKEPOKEPOKE* No just kidding

Actually doing this before the final exam tmr is a bit trashy. Especially when the brilliance of Retsuya strikes at exactly the right moment.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. I am going to be happy after exams....

Ok gotta go study...

expressing the emptiness inside me..