Once upon a time, I was falling in love
 But now, I'm only falling apart
 There's nothing I can do
 A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time, there was light in my life
 But now, there's only love in the dark
 There's nothing I can say
 A total eclipse of the heart

I am always in the dark..

あの女の子

Girl: Gillian Toh aka Retsuya
Age: 19
Schools: IJ Bukit timah, SCGS, SAJC, back to SCGS, NTU SBS
Loves God, anime, drawing, smoked salmon and brie cheese

彼女の欲しい
To be fluent in Japanese by the time I get out of uni
To get a Japanese class somehow without having to spend too much
The Da Girlz to meet together again one day
To get a Wacom tablet and photoshop CS
To live right for God and His plans

私と話すこと


友達

mel. jenny. Esme. Viv. audrie. ARGH cell. BPYM. Sean. Chrisll. Dev. Anime merchandise. uzzy.

過去;

July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 August 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 March 2006 June 2006 November 2006 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 November 2012

感謝;

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Friday, March 28, 2008
7:57 PM

nyappy~It's retsuya.

Guess what? Life Concert 2008 is COMING!!!!!! Retsuya's so excited, but I'd better pray hard too that more ppl will come and see the awesome wonder that God can fill the whole CC with. The experience last year was trilling, and I really want to continue to worship God every single moment of my life.

So here's what retsuya is doing...




This cross is done by retsuya's wonderful junior. ok. What did the brilliant retsuya come up with???



THIS UGLY THING. The word is supposed to be ALIVE, btw. It looks horrendous. So retsuya tries again...



The one on the left is retsuya's. So I wasted 3 wires, and I only completed 1 cross while my juniors have finished 100 odd of them in 2 weeks. What a useful senior I am, fufufu.

oh yeah, retsuya has a new LJ account to talk easily with blyu-chan. It will be quite dead cos this is my main blog. HERE

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Wednesday, March 26, 2008
10:09 AM

nyappy~Retsuya here.Gosh I am so crazy over nyappy.

Retsuya has gotten a form to go on exchange programme to---JAPAN. 28th May to 3rd June. whee I can finally realise mah dream...*dances like a maniac* Problem is: 1)I have SFC june camp frm 26th to 28th May, unless I can get out on the night of the 27th...2)A lot of ppl going, including blyu(vivian), who's still trying even though mum doesn't want her to go because of health problems...so I need ppl whom I know to go with me.3)There's a friggin' interview. Ah if they see retsuya's blasted BT1 results I'll be in deep doo-doo, but I have the Jap speaking advantage.

BT1 isn't that good, retsuya wants to pass bio and finally prove that the person who hasn't taken bio in O's can do as well in A's. Chem is the crap, I should have gotten a C instead of a lousy D. Either that or my expectations are too high. Currently trying to persuade friends not to give up on JC2, even though it is the worst time we can ever get.

blah I am still in stupid school, so I have lunch now, cos I have a brilliant 2 hr break. Wednesdays have too many breaks but a long day. Ahhh well retsuya can study for tmr's BIO SPA. Bacteria are cool:3

ok, that's it for mah rant. bye~nyappy~

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Thursday, March 20, 2008
8:57 PM

yeah, so I bought a whopping 60 buck book, I will never buy a book again, but this vivian goes and buys the second volume of kuroshitsuji so I cannot buy all three. Maybe I should start up a book lending system, so that I won't need to waste money again...

As promised, the pic on maths rotting your brain here

wheeeee no more block test, the geog was horrendous, its the teachers' fault we were supposed to get our darn case studies and it came out. I am so dead. Then there is bio spa. whoopie.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Wednesday, March 19, 2008
8:23 PM

Ok, I just died for maths. I totally dunno what to write and I think my brain exploded. And do you know what brilliance retsuya did??? Retsuya went off talking talking talking with friends (yeah and staring at Vivian when she realised that she hadn't studied summation 5 min before exam), gave Esme the maths, carried on yapping---until I saw the seating plan. I was like, oh shit, am I in the wrong venue????? Luckily Ms Sim saved me and I rushed all the way down to C102. STUPID STUPID RETSUYA NEVER GO AND CHECK THE VENUE PROPERLY. I did not know how to do a damn load, but the last part I managed. Randy Gill was our invigilator, so he was quite fed up with S14 for two reasons: 1) Maria cannot tie scripts properly so Mr Randy was so pressed for time or what told her to hurry, it was a full 5 min before she could get ready. 2) Yun Guan said that she had accidentally put her answer script into the unused pile, so they checked the unused pile, no turn up, then I searched the used pile( unfolding all the crumpled sheets of paper. boo.) it wasn't there too. So Mr Randy was like, J2 already make this kind of mistake...

Worse, Ms Sim had called my mum about my stupid absence!!!!! I had to apologise like a million times and vow to check the paper properly.

Ehhh geog tmr (stupid department still hasn't given us case studies) I am so horrible at human geog, I hope I can at least pass this. I hope it isn't a essay...and I have to go, or else my stupid bro will tattle on me.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Saturday, March 01, 2008
11:06 AM

*chompchompchompmunch* I think in converse of L needing sugar for brain power, retsuya needs salt for brain power. Even though I require to be the SALTY salt and useful salt. yay.

Again another 4 hrs of tuition. I want to stop procrastinating already. I have a chem guidebook in front of me and a ton of pretzels. My dad refuses to let me eat the potato chips. I seriously want to go back to playing tennis. Retsuya doesn't wanna get fat. Goodness me I am acting like the real retsuya...who actually gobbled down his brother's cake before he could cut a piece for him. All retsuyas are greedy and stubborn pigs...

expressing the emptiness inside me..