Once upon a time, I was falling in love
But now, I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time, there was light in my life
But now, there's only love in the dark
There's nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

I am always in the dark..

あの女の子

Girl: Gillian Toh aka Retsuya
Age: 19
Schools: IJ Bukit timah, SCGS, SAJC, back to SCGS, NTU SBS
Loves God, anime, drawing, smoked salmon and brie cheese

彼女の欲しい
To be fluent in Japanese by the time I get out of uni
To get a Japanese class somehow without having to spend too much
The Da Girlz to meet together again one day
To get a Wacom tablet and photoshop CS
To live right for God and His plans

私と話すこと


友達

mel. jenny. Esme. Viv. audrie. ARGH cell. BPYM. Sean. Chrisll. Dev. Anime merchandise. uzzy.

過去;

July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 August 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 March 2006 June 2006 November 2006 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 November 2012

感謝;

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Thursday, June 08, 2006
7:51 PM

Sometimes learning a new language is so difficult. Considering I self-studied japanese for 4 years before I got a class.
And now... SCHOOL IS SO HARSH.
Learning and re-learning all your stuff and just turning your brain to a pile of mush. Yep, all your cerebrum and cerebellum all fusing together to form a huge sticky mess. Forgive me for being morbid here... I can't believe I can spell these big words though I am not studying bio ( rantmadethewrongcombirant)
So well. Not much difference is made this year. I am still the weirdo person sitting alone on the canteen bench trying to stuff myself to death with chocolate chip cookies. Except I am not that suicidal. For me, talking is a gray area. Strangely I am able to do well for oral. I can't understand this at all: I've got a 24 hour non-stop yakking bro and with retsuya the silent perpetrator in a corner probably studying( I am SO glad this stupid com has regained its connection because the telly's gone bust as well. Talk about a boring holiday)
Life as a secondary four student. So not good. I have been literally pulling out my hair over this( not kidding I have to get Beijing101 to fix the patch on my head) Worse, no human support at all. And all because " You always never open yourself up and talk more" comments. Oh yah and when I do open my mouth I can talk nonstop about anime. which usually drives others nuts. Retsuya is not an otaku, but she is definitely not treated like one. Which is probably why I have no close friends. I can be nice and everything but I can't see what is missing.
OMG my grandfather bought an XBOX. @_@ but thankfully i am off PS2 for now. Except to force my brother to play Narutimate( I shall defeat you you innocent little freak) But yes, this is study time. No geog mock exam!!! Hurray!!!!!

retsuya has just finished ranting because she is going to watch Singapore Idol. Rahima all the way!!!! This batch of girls are too wild and too young.

expressing the emptiness inside me..